My dreams and wishes starts crumbling. There are things I so much wanted but am unable to get them. I fear of fraud, I fear of restrictions. The sources I used were of no help. Only if miracles happen... ... to me... ...
Who are you? I am Lambo.
Who am I? You are Lambo.
Labels: Wishing for miracles...
This is bad. Even with the use of LP10, my score still couldn't hit 560. It's all me though... There are too many only ifs. I think i'll have to work out MY training plan instead. following a set of training plan which is generally meant for a group of 2 people when i'm not judged seriously isn't advisable for me to keep following. i have to recall the training i had last year which help me keep things constant. i'll work out to switch back to how i shoot (positioning etc) last year. It could be I'm in the situation like I have no coach and also, I lack a lot of training cause of work. Had the feeling to quit shooting earlier during the shoot but managed to go through it. at least 20 shots (ending) were all luck. my aiming area, position etc were all random... haiz... I do hope i win lottery of at least 1m. haha
Anyway, went to fish & co. with wk, js and yl on friday. I think after this round, I'm not going to go fish & co. anymore. Not because their food is bad. but it's seriously overpriced come to think of it. and the really bad service we had? we really shouldn't pay that much service charge... everyone is so busy these days.
Why the hack is there so much thoughts in my mind all the time. my braincells are depleting... and i'm always thinking of the things that will never happen... it's kind of strange. i'm always not getting what i want but things i do not want or never thought of... at these rate, my life will still be equally bad... haiz... only if things can go the way i want...
I think starhub tv does not have jap channels... oh man... TBS, Fuji TV, Asahi TV? none of these?? haiz... even jap movies are not really shown in SG... haiz... why aren't I born in Japan? haha.
Kind of feel like i'm in the parallel world of Sawada Tsunayoshi. the parallel world which he did not meet reborn (though that's fiction)... I'm starting to understand how some terrorists feel but i'm not dumb enough to be 1.. haha. terrorists are not there to create an ideal world (a world which they think is ideal for them). But, they are just murderers...
Why doesn't anyone understand me? haha...
Who are you? I am Lambo.
Who am I? You are Lambo.
Labels: Lonely and useless life...
Watching Jap drama and somehow kind of let me recall that I wanted to move to Japan for some time. But then cause of watching too many documentaries about natural disasters in Japan and ended up not thinking about it. I wonder if it is possible to watch Jap channels on Starhub cable TV. Still thinking about it but guess I'll start picking up the language. makes it easier to decide in future too. haha. can look for cosplay and anime stuff there i suppose. why am i always hesitant... haiz... oh well, gtg sleep...
Who are you? I am Lambo.
Who am I? You are Lambo.
Haiz... been a very bad week. from everyday's a working day, it's becoming everyday's an OT day... OTed for 4 days straight and didn't really have time for training. next week probably have 2 days of trainings at most. haiz... really dunno what to do for SSA... Only if I know earlier there were going to be so many meetings this month, I wouldn't have declared that I'll be using SSA result. that aside, this month's and next's SSA shoot are seriously impt if I intent to use 1 of the 558... last month's score was pathetic... hopefully all goes well eventually.
some things are really crappy. been approached by another insurance agent yesterday. somehow i seem to be attracting salesmen, insurance agents etc etc... i mean, i don't look rich... perhaps i look old cause my collegues were never approached but i was always the 1 who gets it... at least the insurance agents were pretty. haha. that's not the main point... sometimes the deal is good but i just can't afford so many policies. haha. another case was that i was approached to sign up for a credit card... how crappy can things go...
saw a news showing ppl in US (i think) breaking a world record of smashing lots of pies. i mean, it's still food and these can be used to save many lives... i just don't get what the 1st world ppl are thinking... and the pies costs money too right?? haiz...
i should never had tried doing something for 21st. it's not like everyone gets to celebrate their 21st. but now. things are in a total mess. ppl asking if anything is still on etc etc... forget it. i ignore this matter for the time being... haiz..
Who are you? I am Lambo.
Who am I? You are Lambo.
Labels: how frustrating...
Got to use the newly assigned LP10 for monthly shoot today. the result a few days back is ok but it wasn't that fantastic today although there is a significant increase in the number of tens. somehow, the number of 8s increased as well and it just happens that i'm no longer able to control my sights like how i did in previous week's training. furthermore, i really dare not fire quite a lot of shots. probably cause i had a nightmare the night b4. shall not say what it's abt and i kind of forgot most of it's content. anyway, didn't really sleep well also and i was like dozing off while trying to aim. head was heavy and all cause i was woken up twice (1 by nightmare and 1 cause i was woken up by a living alarm clock... haiz... on top of that, i was d*** pissed off cause the lane machine thingy kept having problems. have to tap at least 2 times to get my target card back... frustrated me so much that i really couldn't concertrate on my shoot and had to stop several times. like what coach nigel says, i'm magnifying small problems... only if i was more patient with the machine. things might have been different. hope i can do better for SSA. oh well, got 558 this time and still yet to break my own record. hope i can for SSA shoot. 2 weeks to minimise the number of 8s... maybe i should do that training again. doubt coach will allow though.
i'm never going to answer home phone again until i feel like answering it.
is there really someone out there who i can really trust? haha....
Who are you? I am Lambo.
Who am I? You are Lambo.
Labels: i'm forgotten...
Trained with the newly assigned LP 10 today. Still having problem with the sights. somehow the number of clicks is not really the same as what it's supposed to be. Or maybe, it's just me. haha. Anyway, I think my grouping size can return to within 9 ring without touching the line between 8 and 9. Or even 10th ring. haha. but then again, the outcome of 1 training session doesn't show everything. oh well, got quite a few things to touch up on cause my usual 2 groupings are super serious. usually it's 10 and 9 or 9 and 9. today, it's 10 and 8 although i have more 10s than usual and smaller grouping size too. alright, time to sleep.
Who are you? I am Lambo.
Who am I? You are Lambo.
Yup, have shifted blog to this url. pretty long url so do link me to your blog for easy navigation. can't blog often so probably do it every weekend.
Well, got to use a new (or rather, used - second hand) LP10. trying to get used to it. trigger was too front, rear sights gap too big etc etc. Will take some time to get used to it but then again, I only have 5 more days of training provided I don't get any OTs. Sis' birthday coming soon but I'm not getting any presents for her. Will treat her a meal instead so I don't need to spend time shopping and thinking what to get (which I always spend hours thinking about).
Monday blues are driving it's way in, blue shirt tomorrow to show than Monday blues had set into me. Oh well, I'm not going to wear a violet top even if Wednesday comes... Alright, can't remember what else to say cause it had been a long time of dragging etc etc... Time to head for bed or the stupid cycle will repeat... Nitez ppl...
